a perfect denial

i wish i didn't have to know
i wish i didn't have to find out
and i wish i never got carried away
i didn't want to believe what i know
didn't want to believe what i found out
and i shouldn't have got carried away
yet, i am glad i knew
i am glad i found out
and i am glad i got carried away

the day i stepped out the door
only soon i realize, i was twice a fool
i've hurt myself for too long
but what you did was more than what i did to you

it's a beautiful lie...such a perfect denial