a perfect denial

i wish i didn't have to know
i wish i didn't have to find out
and i wish i never got carried away
i didn't want to believe what i know
didn't want to believe what i found out
and i shouldn't have got carried away
yet, i am glad i knew
i am glad i found out
and i am glad i got carried away

the day i stepped out the door
only soon i realize, i was twice a fool
i've hurt myself for too long
but what you did was more than what i did to you

it's a beautiful lie...such a perfect denial

what is heard and spoken

sometimes i wish you could be who you said you are
sometimes i wish the same for myself
but i don't ever hide it
not from anyone..not from you.

how could you say you miss me
when you're missing someone else?
how could you promise you'll hold me tight
when someone else is in your arms?
how could you be with someone
when i kept myself for you?

how could you?


what i have now is a secret..
and that secret is your sweetest secret.