to change over mistakes

you know there are times we ought to be happy

i thought i was...
i thought i didn't have to go through any tortures and pain again
but here i am, feeling the same

lessons learnt from the past...
i never want to make the same mistakes again
but here i am, committing it again

i must and have learnt to say no
i don't want to lie to myself to make things fine
but here i am, giving in again

for once, i just want to be happy
be happy with love
but here i am...rambling my unheard thoughts