the last chapter

the time you blocked me from all corners,
the moment you shut the door on me,
it made me finally realize that there's no more hope..faith..and love for me to wish upon anymore.
and so you do not need to worry about doing such anymore,
because i've stopped.

what i've said to you just now is what you want to hear but not what i wanted to say.
i've not said everything because words that pour out of my mouth would not register in your mind and would have the least definition in your soul.

even you thought that we were fake from the start,
there weren't anything true..
but i did believe there were..
because i had took a very big step that could cost me my own flesh and blood..
i had given my all..everything which you never did
and i think that is the reason why you're taking this easily.
and you let your anger help you go through this..

my mistakes may be small to me but are very huge for you..
and you couldn't give me another chance..once last chance from you for me to mend..
your mistakes may be small to you but are very deep for me..
and yet i had given you multiple chances...because i love you too much
i love you too much to believe that you will change..that you've changed but you never did
i believed that you appreciated me all this while, but you took that advantage against me..
you can't even be there when i needed you most and it didn't happen once..and so i resorted in calling a friend.
i've put my hopes too high in you to believe that you'd be a better man
i guess i was wrong...
and those are the reasons why i am struggling and you're not

they say home is where the heart is..
family is where the home is..
i have nothing left here for me to hang on..not even my closest friends could help me
and when i go back home..i'm going back the family, and not for anyone else.
from there, i'll try.
i'll start a new life...a new hope..a new faith in myself and in god.

remember when i said you need to change?
do it, do it for the better...do it for yourself..
otherwise, you will never be happy
and,
learn to let go or you'll be in denial for the rest of your life.