then - N.O.W

it has been a month where we walked down the end of our path
and it wasn't easy for the both of us..
but how would i know..
you were always the stronger one

in days you would have already found a new companion
in hours you would have already thrown the past away
in minutes you would have already ignored the best times
in seconds you would have already had forgotten about me

sometimes i wonder what you're up to..
if you are well?
to tell you the truth..
i really do miss you and the times we had together..

BUT
i had finally come to realize that i have wasted 2 years MISSING out LIFE
the life i'm supposed to explore at this point of my days on this earth
and yet i never said i wasted 2 years of my life with someone whom i loved so dearly and cared about..
for that 2 years really was a lesson learnt to be someone better..

everyday i see a brighter day...
i feel like a little child in a candy store..
walking around rows of candies, not knowing which to choose..
it's a whole new phase for me to get back to the top of my happiness and joys

and the best part is that i have my dear heartlings: family and friends..
who is here for me..all the time
who is still wanting to help and had helped me gone through the darkness of my misery

and again..i wondered about you..
you've probably got a new friend..and for sure you've got your antidote
but you know what?..you're still lonely and would never be as happy

WHY?
it's because the both of us know that i have caused myself a great loss
but guess what?.. yours is even GREATER
for someone who would stand by your side..
for someone who would make an enormous sacrifice for you
for someone who would have done everything to satisfy your needs
and for someone would have been disowned by their own flesh and blood..

well, things would have been perfect if that someone shouldn't have LIED for 2 years..
but what great difference would it have made if you had DONE and LIED for 2 years..
so tell me..who is the one who deserved more pain?